Friday, March 26, 2010

craft

I love craft things very, very long time ago~~ Now~~ I can fulfill my dream of DIYing my own thing and sell it to get income!!! Yay!!!!
I bought a lot of non woven cloths for that purpose~~ I have completed 11 and on the way making more before I start to sell it!!! This semester break will be a good period for me to use up all my materials~~ Two months!!!!! I believe I can finish it!!!!!
100pcs of the cloths~~~ hoho~~~ Cant imagine when I use up all my materials~~~
I need idea, idea, idea and ideas~~~ hah!!!
Wish me luck!!! Hope that i can earn money from that!!!! haha~~~

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Hint

I guess its a hint from God~~
I have seen the same message twice in a day~~ And the message is very impressive~~~ Like talking to me about my problems~~~
"Shared joy is a double joy, shared sorrow is half a sorrow"
what does that means??? May be He wants to tell me that if I am willing to share joy with the others~~ The joy will be much more than that~~ It will be 200% from what I shared~~ If I share sorrow to the others~~ They wont feel the sorrow as I do~~ Which means they only feel 50% of what i feel~~ Sad thing~~ But its true~~ How many person in this world will wanna share the pain you suffer?? Not many I think~~
Its time to learn how to share more JOYS and throw away ALL the SORROW so that the total of 150% of the sorrow will be gone~~ Out of my mind while the HAPPY one stays forever~~~That should make me and my friends happy always~~~ Rather than feeling SAD myself~~~
GAMBATTE!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, March 19, 2010

Sorry sorry~~

I have been away for a very long time~~ away from His home~~~ My home sweet home~~
Does He really abandoned me?? This is the question I've ask myself again and again and again~~ For dont know how many times~~~
I went to church today~~ the title spoken today was "WAITING"~~
Suites me~~ I guess~~
The content was:
When we pray, we often expect God to answer our prayers~~ But we had forgotten that prayers is not only for the time when we are under depressed, in problems or troubles...
Prayers should be every where, every time, every occassions~~ Its a media or channel for us to communicate with Him - our God~~~ It is up to Him whether to answer our request or not~~~ Our duty is to tell Him everything~~ No matter small or big case~~ No matter we are in troubles or not~~~ Because He is the one who listen~~ And is Him who will decide what to do~~~ That is His responsibility~~~
I guess I have to do my part always~~
Besides, we cant determine with the so call 'fact' that:
when our prayer has been answered = He has listened to us
He will always be there to listen to us~~ He did not answer our prayers doesnt mean He dont care of us~~~ May be He wants to train us to become stronger through problems~~ Just like our parent~~ They will give the best to us~~ they would stop us when the thing we want is not suitable for us or it will harm us in a way that we dont know~~~ He is like that too~~ So dont blame Him for not answering our prayers~~ He is just protecting us in a way that we dont like or agree with~~ That doesnt mean that He dont love us~~ JUST we dont understand His purposes and He had all our blames~~~
Sorry~~ Father Lord~~ Sorry for all that I have blame You with~~~ I promise I will learn to understand Your ways and wills~~~ Not mine~~~
Sorry~~~

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Problem

I wonder how~~ I wonder why~~~
I have been facing the same problems over and over again~~ Why is it happening to me?? I just want friends~~ so that I will not be alone all the time~~ Is it really that hard???
Every time when i saw the others who always hanging out with a gang of friends or having that specific friends all the time, I become so down~~ Always asking why why why~~~ Why i dont have one???

I am very hurt these days~~ Seeing them going out together.... leaving me behind~~ its like stabbing me with a real sharp knife~~
do prayers really answered by God?? I'm doubt right now~~~ I can just blame myself~~ Im such a stupid and ugly person~~ may be no one wants to be my friend~~ may be becoming one of my friend is not a good thing to them~~ sad~~ real sad~~~ being denied by the others is such a sad thing~~ anyone would really want to become my friend???
I wonder~~~