Sorry sorry~~

I have been away for a very long time~~ away from His home~~~ My home sweet home~~
Does He really abandoned me?? This is the question I've ask myself again and again and again~~ For dont know how many times~~~
I went to church today~~ the title spoken today was "WAITING"~~
Suites me~~ I guess~~
The content was:
When we pray, we often expect God to answer our prayers~~ But we had forgotten that prayers is not only for the time when we are under depressed, in problems or troubles...
Prayers should be every where, every time, every occassions~~ Its a media or channel for us to communicate with Him - our God~~~ It is up to Him whether to answer our request or not~~~ Our duty is to tell Him everything~~ No matter small or big case~~ No matter we are in troubles or not~~~ Because He is the one who listen~~ And is Him who will decide what to do~~~ That is His responsibility~~~
I guess I have to do my part always~~
Besides, we cant determine with the so call 'fact' that:
when our prayer has been answered = He has listened to us
He will always be there to listen to us~~ He did not answer our prayers doesnt mean He dont care of us~~~ May be He wants to train us to become stronger through problems~~ Just like our parent~~ They will give the best to us~~ they would stop us when the thing we want is not suitable for us or it will harm us in a way that we dont know~~~ He is like that too~~ So dont blame Him for not answering our prayers~~ He is just protecting us in a way that we dont like or agree with~~ That doesnt mean that He dont love us~~ JUST we dont understand His purposes and He had all our blames~~~
Sorry~~ Father Lord~~ Sorry for all that I have blame You with~~~ I promise I will learn to understand Your ways and wills~~~ Not mine~~~
Sorry~~~