This??? Or that???

Everyday...

We need to make decisions everyday....

No matter small one, or big one~~

Whether to eat noodle or rice??? Whether to drink coke or water??? Whether to buy this or that??? Whether to help him or her??? So on.......

There are a lot of decisions we need to make for our entire life~

Each decisions lead to different outcomes and results..... What we decide now will affect our living styles and ways in the future~~

Some will wonder whether they had made the right decisions or not..... May be the decision is the best one for now but not the future.... May be it doesn't seems good for now but better for the future~~

The most important thing that one must remember is that.... God doesn't force you to make a decision like what you had selected... He wants you to make a decisions that is by His Will.... You can choose to follow or let go....

In the end... You will know that His way is the BEST for you and me~

Trust in Him~~ Every decisions made will be supported once you think His way~~

Read more BIBLE!!!!!!!!

It has lots of words that can help one to make the right decisions!!!!

AMEN!!!!!

Crazy~~

Dont know what is the reason~~ Every time I work at SnJ, I will enjoy and laugh a lot~ Yesterday, HY told me that my laugh was very influencing one~ Haha~ Sweat man~

Today, I have gone crazy again~~ Like a mad girl~~ Laughing all the way~~ The whole day~~ haha~~ I was making a double bow~~ I tell HY that I wanna make a nun-chuk~~ its a very big different~ I dont understand why I said so~~ may be I have problems with my head and nerves~~ Hah~

Around our closing time, there was a customer wanted to make a "nun-chuk" said HY~~ haha~ We laugh again~ They said that the way i laugh and act was very cute~~ Very happy~~ This cute and the cute I dont like is different though~ haha~~

Hope that I can behave like that every day~~ So that I can influence more people that there is still warm in the world!!!

My Prince Charming

I wonder when can I get to meet my prince charming~~ I had dreamt about meeting my prince charming~~ I hope that I can have a romantic relationship~ Just like what i dreamt~~ Meeting him, fall in love due to understand and that chemical reaction, he would care for me, love me, hug me like I will be gone in any minutes, and lastly get marry and give birth~~ Problems do occur during the relationship but it helps us to understand each other better~ Unwillingly to be separated~~ Fuh~~ Dreams really can out of imagination~~ How long else can i wait?

crazy decision

Today's exam wasn't as hard as I thought so~~ And the tips are very ACCURATE!!
I went to Jitra today~~ Watch "Ice Kacang Puppy Love"~~ Nice movie~~ ^^. Tension being released during the movie~~ Hoho~
We have KFC as my dinner~~ the dinner was a disaster~~ We tried the new nasi briyani set~~ It taste bad~~ I dont like it at all~~
I saw my friend's post today morning~~ Asking anyone miss her cause she is going back~~ Quite a number of people comment on her post~~ Lots of people miss her~~ May be because she is cute and pretty~~ haha~~ Shame on me~~ Guess no one will miss me at all~~ Haih~~
I saw another post later at night~~ One of my friends celebrated her birthday~ I dont know when~~ But the post made me sad~ None of my Christian friends celebrate for me~ I know I shouldn't be greedy~~ But I'm really really sad~~ Because I feel that I'm no one among them~~ May be I'm not welcomed by them~ Sad story~~ No one will pity me~~ No one will care about my feeling~~ Who am I for them to care for?
Someone advised me to be more aggresive to care for somebody else~ We have to be initiative~~ Not being passive~~ If i does not get any from others~~ How do I spread or even care for others when i dont have any??? Sad~
Today I saw a notice on the notice board near cafe~ It states that a guy had stolen things from the shop~~ But caught by CCTV~~ I'm afraid that he is one of my friend~~ Cause the size and shape of the body look alike~~ I hope that it was not him~~ Pray~~ Haih~~ Sad thing~~
Sad things do happen everyday~~ Its the matter of how we handle it~~ I bet I failed to handle it well and properly~~ I could not control myself~

Its the final count down~~

Im on my way counting down for my journey to my home!!!
after today's paper... I will left only 2 exam papers to go~~ so excited!!!!
less than a week~~ I'LL BE HOME LESS THAN A WEEK!!! Like the past few semesters, I dont expect high CGPA for my final~~~ I just hope that I can maintain~~ Its enough for me~~ and today, while I'm studying and preparing for my exam paper... I fcan feel it~~ I can feel the power from God~~ Thank Him for being with me~~ That power is awesome!!!! Amen!!
Oh God, continue to help me and grant me wisdom and knowledge for the papers I'm going to sit for!!!! In Jesus name, Amen!!!
Gambatte kudasai!!!!!!

nothing is impossible~~

usually... we like to say nothing is impossible~~ i feel that people who say this quotation have the intension of cheating ownself~~~ though...... sometimes it really works~~ haha~~
it has been 2 days after my birthday~~ I'm quite sad~~ especially one day before and on that day~~ why?? haha~~
i have join them to celebrate 2 friends' birthday just few days before my birthday~~ like usual~~ i expect that they will either celebrate my birthday one day earlier or on that specific day~~I was disappointed... nothing happen~~ not a single birthday celebration until this moment~~
I kept telling myself they are busying with their exam~~ that's why they did not celebrate for you~~ dont be sad~~ there are around 100 persons wished you happy birthday in facebook~~ why care for the minority while majority greet you??
haha~~ yeah~~ why do i need to care for those who dont care for me?? why do i need to be sad just because of them?? do they worth it?? God knows~~
Nothing is impossible~~ may be they just want to give me surprise?? haha~~ lying to myself again~~ once and once and once again~~ may be i dont worth being celebrated by them~~ moreover, I'm not a celebrity, not anyone important to them~~ may be i really dont worth it~~ haha~~
then, I was thinking~~ if that is so~~ why do i need to celebrate for the others while they dont celebrate mine?? I laugh at myself~~ for being foolish~~ the reason i celebrate their birthday carry other meaning~~ i hope that they will celebrate for me in return~~ what an idiot~~ they have no responsibility to celebrate for me~~ and they did not force me to celebrate for them~~ so..... why do i care so much~~
this is what i told myself: I'm not going to celebrate any of their birthday anymore~~ unless i wanted to~~ lolx~~ so materialistic~~ i couldnt help it~~ i really like to have party with friends~~ but they hurt me too much!! my birthday~~ i wont let it through meaningless~~ its only once a year~~ i will satisfy and celebrate myself~~ eventhough alone~~ i wont~~ i wont waste my time waiting anymore~~
nothing is impossible??? haha!!!
i guess it should be
NOTHING IS POSSIBLE for me~~

we wish you a happy birthday~~

today~~ is the day~~ we are celebrating SH's birthday~~ they bought KFC and Pizza hut~~
At first, I wonder why they did not bring down the food together with the cake~~ May be they dont want SH to notice that~~
The cake was chocolate banana~~ FULL of chocolate!!!! Somemore~~~~ they poke in something else~~~ Our pictures~~~ =.=''' Really sweat~~haha~~~ but creative neh~~ ^o^
SH really surprised~~ and she was touch by the movie made by HP~~ thanks to HP~~ ^^
After finish singing, eating, SS and LY went out~~ i thought they just went back for something else~~
Then, I saw them acting stealthily~~ nothing gets into my mind that time~~ then, i went to toilet washing my hands~~ at that moment, I laughed~~ why?? yeah~~~ i guess they are bringing another cake~~~ to celebrate my birthday~~
happy neh~~~
though i might not be the main purpose for them to celebrate~~ I still wanna thank them for celebrating my birthday~~ ^^
thanks for the cake and food oh~~

let's celebrate~~

my friend told me few days earlier that we are going to celebrate SH's birthday~~ my heart was up and down~~ she's final semester~~ so, I agreed to celebrate for her~~ I dont expect that they will celebrate for me~~ I do feel annoyed for a while~~ my birthday is just around the corner and they plan to celebrate for SH whose birthday falls on May~~ haha~~ then i realize~~ may be i should be more aggresive in joining them~~ i guess no one likes me~~ due to my appearancce and attitude~~ who knows??

anyway... i really want to celebrate SH's birthday~~ she helps me alot and i know i have no chance to celebrate for her anymore~~ since she's leaving for practical~~ hope that she will enjoy her birthday celebration and remember us though she's leaving~~ ^^

Gambatte kudasai!!!!!

and good luck too~~

craft

I love craft things very, very long time ago~~ Now~~ I can fulfill my dream of DIYing my own thing and sell it to get income!!! Yay!!!!
I bought a lot of non woven cloths for that purpose~~ I have completed 11 and on the way making more before I start to sell it!!! This semester break will be a good period for me to use up all my materials~~ Two months!!!!! I believe I can finish it!!!!!
100pcs of the cloths~~~ hoho~~~ Cant imagine when I use up all my materials~~~
I need idea, idea, idea and ideas~~~ hah!!!
Wish me luck!!! Hope that i can earn money from that!!!! haha~~~

Hint

I guess its a hint from God~~
I have seen the same message twice in a day~~ And the message is very impressive~~~ Like talking to me about my problems~~~
"Shared joy is a double joy, shared sorrow is half a sorrow"
what does that means??? May be He wants to tell me that if I am willing to share joy with the others~~ The joy will be much more than that~~ It will be 200% from what I shared~~ If I share sorrow to the others~~ They wont feel the sorrow as I do~~ Which means they only feel 50% of what i feel~~ Sad thing~~ But its true~~ How many person in this world will wanna share the pain you suffer?? Not many I think~~
Its time to learn how to share more JOYS and throw away ALL the SORROW so that the total of 150% of the sorrow will be gone~~ Out of my mind while the HAPPY one stays forever~~~That should make me and my friends happy always~~~ Rather than feeling SAD myself~~~
GAMBATTE!!!!!!!!!!

Sorry sorry~~

I have been away for a very long time~~ away from His home~~~ My home sweet home~~
Does He really abandoned me?? This is the question I've ask myself again and again and again~~ For dont know how many times~~~
I went to church today~~ the title spoken today was "WAITING"~~
Suites me~~ I guess~~
The content was:
When we pray, we often expect God to answer our prayers~~ But we had forgotten that prayers is not only for the time when we are under depressed, in problems or troubles...
Prayers should be every where, every time, every occassions~~ Its a media or channel for us to communicate with Him - our God~~~ It is up to Him whether to answer our request or not~~~ Our duty is to tell Him everything~~ No matter small or big case~~ No matter we are in troubles or not~~~ Because He is the one who listen~~ And is Him who will decide what to do~~~ That is His responsibility~~~
I guess I have to do my part always~~
Besides, we cant determine with the so call 'fact' that:
when our prayer has been answered = He has listened to us
He will always be there to listen to us~~ He did not answer our prayers doesnt mean He dont care of us~~~ May be He wants to train us to become stronger through problems~~ Just like our parent~~ They will give the best to us~~ they would stop us when the thing we want is not suitable for us or it will harm us in a way that we dont know~~~ He is like that too~~ So dont blame Him for not answering our prayers~~ He is just protecting us in a way that we dont like or agree with~~ That doesnt mean that He dont love us~~ JUST we dont understand His purposes and He had all our blames~~~
Sorry~~ Father Lord~~ Sorry for all that I have blame You with~~~ I promise I will learn to understand Your ways and wills~~~ Not mine~~~
Sorry~~~

Problem

I wonder how~~ I wonder why~~~
I have been facing the same problems over and over again~~ Why is it happening to me?? I just want friends~~ so that I will not be alone all the time~~ Is it really that hard???
Every time when i saw the others who always hanging out with a gang of friends or having that specific friends all the time, I become so down~~ Always asking why why why~~~ Why i dont have one???
I am very hurt these days~~ Seeing them going out together.... leaving me behind~~ its like stabbing me with a real sharp knife~~
do prayers really answered by God?? I'm doubt right now~~~ I can just blame myself~~ Im such a stupid and ugly person~~ may be no one wants to be my friend~~ may be becoming one of my friend is not a good thing to them~~ sad~~ real sad~~~ being denied by the others is such a sad thing~~ anyone would really want to become my friend???
I wonder~~~

picture~~~

充实ing~~~~

在过去十二月份的假期当中,我觉得我过得也挺充实的~~

我回到精品店那里打工~~几乎同一班人马,却不一样的感觉~~今年开心太多了!!!!

很高兴能包礼物~~包到不能停!!好兴奋哦!!!!

我还看到八八六十事的男主持人gary yap哦~~~ 他本人很高很白~~斯文型的男生~~~不像在电视内看到那么活跃的他~~原本以为可以向他拿个签名的~~结果,包礼物包得没空呐~~~

我还带上天使环工作呢~~虽然有人会说我的坏话,如:有那么胖的天使吗??等等~~

但很开心的是!!!!! 有很多人赞我可爱哦!!!!连难得见到面的老板也说我可爱哦~~~嘻嘻~~~超high的!!!这个月的我心情都不错吧~~保持笑容, 所以顾客们才会觉得我可爱吧~~~ ^.^嘻嘻~~

也因如此,我认识到很多顾客~~有些是别处的工作人员~~他们看到我都会天使天使的叫我~~~

圣诞节也是在店里度过哦~我工作的最后一天,他们还送我毛巾和一起聊天到三更半夜哦~~~回来时真的好不舍得他们哦~~~希望我们还可以继续联络!!

朋友!!等我回家我一定再约你们出来疯狂下的!!!! ^o^

放些我和同事拍的照片...还有天使环哦~~~